Somehow...

Ended back up here again... I haven't been drawing much lately and if I have it's nothing finished. I need to change that. Seriously.

Have a maid. I love maids.

Hopefully I'll clean up soon!

Working hard

And hardly working on art.

Gotta pay that rent :/ Anyways, here's some things I've been working on-- on and off.

This was supposed to be for darkstalkers tribute but I never finished the sketch. I still want to finish though. Wasn't sure if I wanted her floating or standing, etc etc... yeaaaaah. If I finished it, my boyfriend would've agreed to collab and color it for me. I wish I hadn't let him and myself down in that aspect. It was really great incentive to get it done. I fuckin love his coloring.


Next is a commission I got through to the sketch phase and the guy wanted me to change it completely. Angle and all based on another picture he later gave me as a guide so.... lol guess I'll be using the pose for some other character or somethin.
I make things too hard for myself without using reference. I've really slowed in progression because I feel slight guilt in it. Thinking people will recognize what I used. I'm dumb because I know how to reference but don't. What I really like to do instead of ref is to gesture constantly. That way I learn how the figure moves through constant practice rather than using a guide. Granted, I will use a hand ref in a heartbeat. My own hand of course. But yeah, power to those who do use reference! I just can't seem to want to pick something that strikes my fancy, nor do I know how to go about it... Other than filming my own of course.

I'll give myself one thing though-- I'll redraw a line till it looks right! I love painting faces at times, going off of memory. I feel like I learn alot that way, painting what I remember from past failures and what I see on a day to day basis. Faces of friends and loved ones. The lights, how they reflect in shapes.

As soon as my internet gets cut back on I'm going to do pose maniacs on my days off. I'm so sick of not knowing anymore. So sick of feeling stuck when I draw from my head.

We'll see!

Also, I drew some dudes. Yes I draw them. Maybe they'll be up in the future.

Round 2!

Here's another attempt! 3 new colors this time around :/ they worked well together. I sorta just worked my way around the color picker! lol enjoy nonetheless... Might be a few more of these on my own until I actually pick up a reference :| I like the feeling of working around the face until it looks right. That's probably a bad thing but I'll learn :)

Oh, more white hair too... since I don't know how to paint it yet. ADVENTURE!

Edit 3/4/2009: MAAAAAAN the lips are really flat looking here. Back to the drawing board I suppose!

stupid attempt

I wanna try painting but... I need to get materials.

Here's an attempt at painting in SAI without reference based on what I know :/ Which isn't saying a lot! Also it's because I'm too stubborn to use ref other than using myself or a model. I'm scared of thinking someone would think I ripped off a pose or something. I will draw as needed with a model until I know the body well enough >:I So basically... I paint from memory of what I know (I know, sounds like something every artist does blah blah) but I don't mean it that way. What I'm saying is.. because I don't sketch often, I try to compile everything I've examined, learned and liked about things I've seen into something I can put on paper (or screen) Without having to draw it over and over to get it right. I honestly try to get it right the first time around, which is why it's so frustrating the second or third time around! I'll keep scribbling on the same picture until it looks right out of too much pride for my work. :) So yea... seeing as I don't paint it's not TOO horrid! For that I'm glad.

Turned out nice to start but then I added solid elements in and yea... not the best idea but it's what I like to do. Maybe one day I can make it work to my advantage. You know, when it doesn't suck! But that's not what this blog is for. Maybe one day I'll come back and finish it. I was genuinely tired of looking at it. Her chin and face in general is misshapen... and I feel some elements I had at the beginning I sort of scribbled around have been lost. The lips flattened out alot too, maybe even need to be nudged higher... got alot of contrast issues... her eyebrows are brown and kinda high up and the same color as the skin... ugh, there are so many things I could point out but I'm sick of judging myself. Time to try again... this time with reference!
I do enjoy the nose though (:3

Venting

Took me about an hour... I tried my coloring again... but I'm horrible at picking colors. I'm glad it looks SOMEwhat cool though. Just the color choices weren't what I hoped for. Enjoy... cause I'll never finish.

One of my old sculptures

Upon request~



I feel I can do soooo much better now. Sorry about the bad photos and lighting...

concept update

Just fixed her face... that's all. May change later if I find something more wrong with it. I'm nitpicky like that. :P It's alot different when you see it straight ahead on the screen rather than laying on the table.